I've seen the finish line, panting hard but I was leading the pack; I stretched my neck out to cross the yellow ribbon, only to be tripped up by a inexperience runner / my academic advisor.
I could see myself falling as I tumbled just before the finish line paint. To lose this race is more damaging to my self esteem than any other loss in my career. I personally guaranteed my victory of this race. At this time, all my fans were excited. Hell, I was excited.
The question is how do I recover from this loss? What should be my next step? Should I quit, or should I continue until I have mastered this race? I am physically still but mentally I am running 100 mph. At the same time whining about what has happened is so unfair. Emotionally I'm a wreck--anger sadness and disappointment swirl together in my mind like a funky paint mix. I guess these are the things that champions are made out of. I can tell myself that with no struggle there is no progress. I can tell myself don't quit you are so close. But quitting looms over head.
I guess I will have to consider my future as a career student.
You are going to power through this setback, and turn it in to an even better opportunity!!! Don't let it break you, you are too strong for that!
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